I’m gonna be honest. I’m kind of struggling right now. Life isn’t as awesome as I’d like it to be. As much as I’ve always embraced where I was in life, lately it’s been hitting me like a ton of bricks that I’m not where I thought I would be at this point.
But that is beside the point. Today I found out that my aunt is having to sell her small business that she has run for 28 years. My aunt is one of just a handful of female airplane mechanics in the US. Years ago she developed a composite material that they used to repair airplanes and has built her business to the point where she speaks at schools and trains new airplane mechanics how to use her materials.
Her having to give up her business in enraging me for a few reasons.
Most airlines are outsourcing their repairs and even builds of aircrafts to countries overseas. She’s having a tough time competing with these overseas businesses.
She is female. Running her own business in a completely male dominated world. When she was in school over 30 years ago she faced so many challenges trying to be female breaking into this male dominated field. And yet she did it. And thrived. And managed to gain the respect of so many of her male colleagues.
Lately as she’s been trying to keep her business afloat, she’s been getting screwed over by bigger companies. One of them being Boeing. They broken their contract with her as well as screwing her out of some royalties. She’s between a rock and a hard place because no lawyer she talks to is willing to take on Boeing. Another case of big business walking all over the little guy. My aunt who has built her business out of her home with the help of my uncle so that she could also be their to raise my two cousins.
I keep reminding myself that in my life things could always be worse. And today finding out about my aunt made that all to clear. This angers me on so many levels. Not just because it’s my aunt and she’s family, but because even if this were someone else there would be so many things wrong with it. Outsourcing work overseas, keeping women out of male dominated fields, the big businesses walking all over the little guy with no second thought or any repercussions.
It’s just so frustrating to think about right now. And maybe I’ll feel better when I know my aunt will be okay and gets back on her feet. But I can’t help but feel bad that she’s losing something that has been such a big part of her life.
I guess I don’t even know what else to say. I just hurt for her, and for other people who have to go through these same things. It just doesn’t seem right.
I’m trying a new eating plan to try to help lose some weight or at least get me jump started in the right direction. Well at work on Fridays we do a thing called Fat Friday, where someone signs up to bring treats like donuts or pastries of some sort.
Well today i sat with my co-workers and enjoyed the awesome Olympic conversation and stared down those 36 donuts and drank my tea. Not one ounce of sugary goodness was consumed.
So I’m trying a new eating plan that has worked for my friend in the past. It basically plans all your meals and snacks for you which is kind of nice.
Today with my lunch I’m supposed to drink some vegetable/tomato juice (yes I realize it’s 2:45 and I’m just now eating lunch). So right now I’m pretending that this icky juice is actually a delicious bloody mary.
Having a conversation with your boss and letting them know that you aren’t feeling quite fulfilled or challenged in your job lately. Even though you absolutely love your job, and the people you work with, and your students.
A weekend with a super cuddly and goofball yellow lab.
I was dog sitting for one of my good friends this weekend and I absolutely adore his dog. One of the best things ever is her reaction to seeing me after I haven’t seen her in a few weeks. She gets all shaky and whiny and can’t get close enough to me. Now if that doesn’t make you feel loved I don’t know what will.
We spent a lot of the weekend outside, since we finally had sunshine again. I would throw her ball for her and she’d bring it back. She also spent quite a bit of time rolling around in the now softening snow, trying to bury her ball and then dig it out again.
Then after a long day of playing we’d curl up on the couch, and she’d snuggle up to me, and we’d watch the Olympics.
I know I sound lame right now, but really it was good for the soul. I feel very refreshed and loved after this past weekend.
I’m not one to really complain about the cold. I live in Montana and I chose to live here. It’s winter, it’s gonna get cold. I get it.
But what I don’t like is when the building that I work in if also freezing cold and my space heater isn’t working and all I want to do is curl up in a blanket and my comfies and get warm. Why can’t I wear a sweatshirt to work when it’s this cold? If we don’t get days off for cold or snow the least you could do is let me where my warm stuff to work. I’ll even wear my MSU sweats if that makes it better.
Also will someone go out and start my car for me so it’s warm when I leave tonight?
Spike Lee and Ray Allen have been discussing the possibility of making a sequel to their 1998 film, He Got Game . I’m here for the resurrection of Jesus.
There is so much nostalgia wrapped up in this link. I remember seeing this movie in May 1998 when I was a freshman in high school. It was a first date with a guy but also a group date. That’s how we rolled in the country.
There is something about this movie that I love. It’s Ray Allen. Purest shot in basketball.
Okay now I need to go home and have a date with Jesus.
I feel like I’m in a funk right now and I really don’t know what to do about it.
Last weeks epic meltdown really hit me hard. And I still don’t know why it was so bad. Mental and physical exhaustion maybe?
Like I don’t want to be at work, but I don’t want to be at home. I don’t want to be by myself, and yet I’m not super motivated to hang out with my friends. Nothing excites me right now. I feel like I’m just going through the motions. And I don’t like it. It doesn’t feel like me.
Today was an exhausting day which resulted in me getting home from work at almost 10 pm and breaking down in tears the second I walked through the door.
Also I texted my boss to tell her I was coming in late tomorrow even though I’m normally totally against that. And tried to convince her all day I would come in at my normal time because there is so much to get done. (There really is but I need some mental health time tomorrow morning).
Just got chewed out by a professor because our ski team is going to miss a total of about 2-3 weeks of school this semester because of their travel schedule.
Yeah I get it sucks, but it’s the nature of the beast with that sport. They just have a different way of operating than most sports. Yeah they may be gone for a week, and then they are here for 3-4. I’m really sorry I can’t change it.
But please don’t talk down to me because you have a PhD and are a professor. Yes I get it. I’m about academics. I want to see them do well. That’s why I’m in a job about academics. But I also get they have aspirations outside of getting a degree. They want to do well in a sport they have committed their lives to.
I get college sports aren’t for everyone and not everyone understands them. That’s fine. But please give these “kids” some credit. They work hard in the classroom and at their sport. I’m sorry you may have been ruined by the 1 or 2 people who don’t actively participate in the class. But don’t call me and lump other students in with those you don’t like. It’s the 3rd day of class. You haven’t even given them a chance to you to prove that they are an amazing student who can get a 4.0 while taking 18 credits. When I say they are a good kid and a good student. I mean it.
Sorry this rant is long enough, but this really touched a nerve. Again I get most people don’t “get” college sports. But I work in them and I see the value in them. Our student-athletes have a higher graduation rate than the general student body on our campus. That has to mean that we are doing something right.
Moral of the story: don’t insult me, the people I work with, or my student-athletes cause I’ll go all mother hen on you.
Is it bad that I started my post holiday diet/workouts yesterday to avoid being one of “those people” who start right after the new year? Cause if I do it on December 30th it’s just for lifestyle and not for a New Year’s resolution right?
I really really wish I would have had my phone out and set on camera mode this morning while I was driving to work. It was the most entertaining 15 minutes of my life.
Last night we got about 6 inches of snow so that was awesome. (Wish I could have taken a sick day and visited the mountain). It’s just baffling to me that people who live in Montana and Bozeman are still stunned about snow being on the ground. It’s winter people! We had snow about 3 weeks ago. You couldn’t have forgotten that quickly.
So this morning. I followed a person who thought that because snow was covering the road, that lanes and lines didn’t exist. “Oh no lines. Guess I’ll just drive down the middle of the road.” There was also the awesome person who completely ignored the turn lane into a grocery store that was clearly marked. Like with reflectors and curbing, and was actually plowed. Instead they decided the safest option would be to turn from the lanes of through traffic. Then I also followed another “middle of the road driver. “Oh I’m sorry never ever in my life have I driven 19th avenue. I had NO idea that it was two lanes. How crazy!”
The best though was watching a guy try to pull onto a road from his little lane to his house. The plow had moved all of the snow to block the lane, so I watched the guy look to see if cars were coming, back up, then make a running go at getting through the drift of snow. It was awesome.
It was quite the entertaining morning. Can’t wait until it snows again. You can bet I’ll have my phone ready for pictures.
Montana State defensive end Brad Daly is the 2013 Buck Buchanan Award winner as the top defensive player in the FCS.
Our student-athletes are the greatest. I think it is amazing that we have, not only two but back to back, Buck Buchanan winners (given to the top defensive player in FCS football). Both Brad and Caleb are the types of guys you want winning these types of awards. And for me, a Montana girl through and through, the icing on the cake is that they are both Montana boys. Born and bred. They are MSU legacy kids, who worked their butts off to be the best.
I couldn’t be more proud of where I get to work and the great “kids” I get to work with.
Cannot concentrate on anything. I think I may be buzzed. Who am I?!
(I DID NOT POUR THE WINE. Someone else did and was all “happy holidays!” and I was all, omg so much wine, this is embarrassing)
I’ve gotten in the nasty habit of having a glass of beer my weekly lunches with a friend. One time we even shared a pitcher of beer. That afternoon was not my finest at work. Thank god it was a Friday and my boss was gone.
So there is something floating around on the internet saying it’s colder here in Montana than in Antarctica. It’s -8 here but feels like -24 with the wind chill and humidity. And it’s -22 in Antarctica.
So there’s that. And I just chose to walk across campus to have lunch with my friend. And my face is burning a little right now trying to warm up. That doesn’t sound right.
When I graduated from college my best friend and I took a trip to Seattle to watch the Yankees play, because they are the best. And also my favorite team. This was about the time Robby’s career was just taking off.
We were at the Adidas store in downtown Seattle, and a Yankee was there. Freaking Robinson Cano. It was the first time I was aware of who he was and his contributions to the team.